Source and Expression — The Two Parts of You
Understanding the difference between the eternal self and the temporary vessel.
There was a moment in the conversation where everything got quiet in a different way.
Not emotionally quiet — existentially quiet.
You said:
"When I take it all the way back… because I am… then I am."
And the whole thing shifted.
Because suddenly we weren't talking about hurt feelings or old beliefs or the rules we inherited.
We were talking about the part of you that exists before any of that.
Earlier in the transcript, you described it like this:
"It's not me. That me… that's even more important. That me — who I was — isn't the one here now."
And then you pushed it further:
"I was referring to who made that decision to come here. Which has no time or personality."
That's the break point — the line between source and expression.
Source is the part of you without a story.
No personality.
No timeline.
No preference.
No "likes" or "dislikes."
Just the raw I Am.
And then there's expression — the part of you moving through space and time, reacting to things, forming beliefs, getting its feelings hurt, putting its little porcupine spikes up.
Expression is the "you" that lives the day.
Source is the part watching all of it happen.
In the transcript, you said something simple but huge:
"You're just a vessel for the experience to unfold in space and time."
That's the key.
The vessel changes — age, perspective, wounds, lessons, growth — but the source behind it doesn't.
Then you took it even further:
"It could be a tree. Probably have been.
It could be a plant. Paper.
It might be… I may be… her… I am currently…"
Identity, in that sense, isn't fixed — it's just whichever shape "I Am" is expressing through right now.
This life.
This body.
This name.
This morning conversation.
And once you feel the difference between the two — source and expression — something softens.
You stop expecting the vessel to be perfect.
You stop assuming your reactions define you.
You stop thinking an old belief is the truth of who you are.
You stop confusing the temporary with the eternal.
You said it best without even meaning to:
"Like… the desire to experience contrast… it's not my desire.
This thing."
Meaning: the part of you that signed up for contrast — the part that wanted to feel this and then that — isn't your personality.
It's not the "you" who gets triggered or hurt or confused.
It's the deeper part.
The part that chose experience.
And the moment we remember that, the whole human experience feels different.
Less like something we're failing at.
More like something we're moving through.
Source chose.
Expression experiences.
And somewhere in the middle, we get mornings like this — where both parts become visible at the same time.